how i feel

i got legal amnesia. i completely forgot about the time between the mount pinatubo eruption and the 9-11 attacks.

i just think i remember being in despair.

then i forgot everything.

then i'm unique...i'm not about to follow the crowd.

then i have computer usage. then i try arranging things. to not give everybody a headache.

i remember some things that i want. but everything is just a picture illustration. there's no more solid memory.

i feel free....if i know that i can really serve. if i know that...i'm not harming anyone if i...serve people.

why do i really have a small white house is rosario, pasig city. why does kuya kiko really have his own carinderia business. we have tattoos. my grandma doesn't. we're stuck as kids. everybody isn't.

i might as well draw and paint on my arms. if i'm just stuck as a kid.

i want to receive and open gifts for the rest of my life. i want to buy things for free. i want free things.

i want magical buildings rising from the ground.

i want talking creatures and spirits...i want magical generative language.

i don't want to go to the biggest school ever. i want to go to a place to study nursing and run the international red cross for college.

college comes before primary school.

i want to be innocent before the law also.

i want to run engines for good and charity. i want the mercy and forgiveness of the lord.

i want victory to be different from ccf. i want many different churches in marikina. not just 1 or 2.

i want my own house. i want my own computer. i want my own website. i want my own search engine. i want my own account.

i want my own food and clothes.

i want my own things.

i want to study on the computer. i want gamified points and score for school.

i want moocs. i want free education.